Since writing to God, as usual I am calm….
God seems to be working through me, in me, to help me and others around me. I don’t know why He chose me, I am far from perfect, so very far. But then, there was a woman…read Luke 7:36-42….
Originally written 2/12/87
I have many faults. Whatever they are, help me never to be guilty of any conscious cruelty. There is so much cruelty, and suffering is so wide spread in this world; lonely, agonizing suffering of human lives. Kindness, we all crave for it; to give it or receive it–yet, we are afraid to reach out, to touch, afraid of being conspicuous. Often we look the other way, close our eyes to the unjust; on guard against the hurt….We are not animals who must destroy or kill each other in order to survive; we are God’s children. Jesus was sent to each of us to teach us compassion and love.
Originally written 23/10/87
Thank you….Thank you for friendship, for family, for friends
Thank you for love, thank you for my life, thank you for my gifts.
My heart is filled with emotion that words can’t always express.
I reach out towards you. I offer you my love…
Lord I feel your presence, right here, right now…
I feel you everywhere this day; I give myself to your world…
Your presence is a delight…
There are times when I do not understand what lies ahead for me. I will always remain totally confused as to why I have been chosen and honoured with raising one of Your very special children. Why, I can’t comprehend, but will try with all my heart to do my very best….I tried to shut You out when Jayne was born and I hated You, but with all Your wisdom You knew better and have welcomed me back…
I love my special child so much that it hurts, but You I love more…I worship You with all my heart….Thank You for bringing me back.
To my kids: I hope you will enjoy reading this journal and that it brings back a lot of memories….Some of my feelings and memories are sad, some are happy and some you will not understand….Don’t ever be afraid of your feelings, don’t keep them to yourself, share them with someone, someone special….Whatever you end up doing in your life enjoy it and appreciate what you have, and most of all be closer to your God.